Friday, January 12, 2007
gah.
it's been raining for 1 whole day ready.
and yet the rain aint getting any lighter.
like >.< can it just stop?
so irritating. it's a condusive weather t slp in.
but i doubt so.
the rain kept splattering into my rm.
cos i didnt close the window. =.=
yeah. dumb right?
enough of the rain.
anyways. just got up from my sleep.
doubt that im going back t slp ready.
ate my breakfast n i bit my lip.
still bleeding though. dear's in sch.
having lessons. she's got gg today.
but im still meeting her later =DD
sometimes i find myself an idiot.because i dont know how t put it in words t you.im dumb w words. im someone who doesnt know how t speak well.but that wasnt me. it was my brain who told me wad t do.not my heart. i should listen t my heart. not BRAIN ! ass-hole la me. everytime only know how t create problems.i felt super shitty yesterday. i know i had t be there for you.i know. i really do. but i follow my peanut BRAIN instead. like wtf.i was damn angry at myself.i never intend t give you any pressure. i just want t accompany you as long as we can.i thought back at the times endless fun w have during the holidays.the time when we had endless talkings in eachother arms.the time when we were so engross in the television program. the time when we both hug eachother t sleep & drool-ed (me).the time when we hug eachother like there's no tommorrow.the time when we stood by eachother whenever a problem arises.the time when we fed eachother w food & snatching FRENCH FRIES.the time when we both prepare lunch for you in your lovely hse kitchen.the time when i gave you many surprises throughout the 2 mths holidays.the time when you always get so touch but acted cool made me felt so loved.
althought very saddening luhh. a while only. heh!next time u like that again i PUSH you down the mrt tracks ah !but dear , i just want you to know.i have your interest at heart.i want t make you feel comfortable n relax when u're w me.i want t put a WIDE WIDE WIDE smile on ur face after a long tiring day at school.no matter how i treated you or reacted or felt irritated.i love you dear.