Thursday, November 30, 2006
gawd. wth is w me.
im just so frustrated.
am i part of this family at all anot?
i feel so sick and tired.
i so want t cry.
why do my parents have t keep the problems all t themselves.
then what are children for?
are they supposed t be born for laughter, peace and joy?!
im old enough t understand e situation.
is it that hard t tell me?
everything is told t sis.
den when i ask her. she said nth.
wth is this world coming too!
i know mum is having difficulties.
but im no longer a child anymore. not a 3yrs old kid.
there's nothing t hide. all i want t know is the truth.
up till now. i dont know if my dad treats my mum well.
NOT AT ALL. I DUN HAVE ANY IDEA !
this is so irritating. what's there t hide in family bonding?
before Os even started.
i tried so many bloody times t make our family happy.
it never last for long.
after Os it's still back t the old square one.
is money that all you 3 care?!
im so fcuking tired when u people talk abt money.
money money money! everything is money !
money is only important t a certain extent !!
wtf does he wants from my mum!?!
my mum changed so much just cos of him.
and he still fucking dun give it a damn?!
mum love him wholeheartedly.yet mum got this kind of IDOIT !
everytime. i didnt managed t talk t mum nicely over the phone.
cos i wanted t scold her. but i couldnt bring myself too.
mum talk t be so nicely. yet i yell at her. i should be more discipline.
and afterall, she's still my mum. but he? is he still my dad ? or a JERK?
what on earth is wrong w me !
forgive n forget. but i cant.
this incident is too hard for me t swallow.
sis may not give a damn at all.
but mum does. cos mum loves him.
that's why she gave in t him too much.
when mum bothers it means it's my business too.
end up. he took advantage of the situation.
why on earth? there's million of people out there.
why must target him? he aint rich !
he's not a billioniare. he's just an employee.
he works for people. not people work for him.
so why target him?
guess he havent learn his lesson at all.
maybe he wants t get AIDS real soon. and DIE.
that's wad sis said. just dont spread t mummy n us !
he die 1st. not me nor mummy n sis.
i HATE HIM T THE CORE !